Precious 💎

Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It’s not something you learn in school. But if you haven’t learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven’t learned anything.”
― Muhammad Ali

Just sharing something with a very emotional soul right now. 
I came in 6th standard, i met a girl. We tried to interact. We became best ever foes. 😂

For like 3 and a half years, we continued this strong bond of being enemies. It was always like whose the best and as always she was n she is. But yeah, we were never jealoused instead we used to get angry a hell lot. 

Then in 9th standard, a girl took admission n we in starting  were highly impressed by her. She became friend n eventually because she was also very active n a bright student with overconfidence 😥, became a mutual foe of both of us. 😹 

That’s how we became friends when we started making fun of every child of our class n shared common hatred for that girl. 😹😹 we enjoyed each others company a lot and we started feeling like “why did we met too late?” 

We used to sing songs too loud in the class because of two reasons, first we didnt liked out classmates and second we didnt care about anyone. We reached in 10th n went to interschool debate competitions and science competetions. Our pair got so famous in school that one day, we were not talking to each other, n a girl from 11th came to us n asked,”are you both friends again now?” N we looked each others face n laughed a lot. Even our senior teachers gets to know from our faces, whether we are friends at the moment or not. We both had a great bonding with our science teachers n m0st of the time we used to bunk our classes n sit with them. We passed 10th with 10cgpa and danced a lot on stage. 

We came in 11th, she opted medical n i non medical, though same class, she got some friends i didn’t liked n i got some friends she didn’t liked. Then we just got seprated for like 3-4 months n a day came when we couldnt hold our grudges n we just cried n laughed n get back together. Then 12th, it was like a daily routine to go to the canteen and eat samosas n stuff. I remember i was inside the canteen n i broke off the water tap.😹😹😸 uncle got angry but we laughed a hell lot in front of him n even he started making fun of me. Enjoyed that though. Then we used to give our canteen wale uncle 15 rs n take 3 samosas instead of 2 n used to blackmail him like uncle, its our last session n u wont be able to see us n entangles him into the convo like hows aunty n ur children. 😹😹 he used to get happy n we get ours samosa. 

We never realised like one day, this school will be over n we won’t be able to meet each other every day. But now do we realise, it makes me feel so lonely without her, i call her my fairy god mother because to deal with me is not easy, n to even understand her isnt easy because all her sarcasm i have been through😹😹 and whats she says was what she dont want in front of all. Only i knew what she meant and this was really a beautiful thing. 

She is so close that she has now become a family member, i remember i was taking bath n she came to my home n sat in my room i didnt knew and surprised me because i was without my leggings😹😹😹. Besharam aurte😹😹

Went to golden temple n sitting there was the first time i felt what peace is and you made me realise it and ur dialogue “shweta kabhi shanti se baithi hai”😹😹😹.  Yea, i remember never.😜 

All i know is what i am today,the sense of world and every thing,  is only  because of her. Right now, i am in Bhopal n whenever i talk to her, i miss her even more n sometimes it makes me cry. This whole topic is just dedicated to you my fairy god mother n yes you are “PRECIOUS”. 💝💝💝

Mentally hurted🔥

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God damn, some problems that may look nothing to others, are sometimes the most hurting things ever.

I know its not easy to play with fire, but to even think to sit close to it might burn you. Sometimes we say those things which we actually havent thought about. But just because others are saying it, we start thinking like that too. And then when someone else makes us realise about it, we actually feel bad and hurted. We get served what we deserve. 

When anyone defames us,we get angry and its natural . But right now, its anger,regret, hatred and hate myself kind of feelings i have for that person. Because he was right and i was exactly wrong. Yes, because he showed me the mirror.  This is the fact that i fail to accept . Thats why it hurts and i am hurted. 

He dont know me thats why he did this but everybody is not supposed to know me. The hell, i need to grow up. This blog is nothing but just self realisation of own mistakes and getting hurted because of own attitude problem. 

Maybe i should stop interacting, whosoever feels like talking to me can contact directly and probably 97% of the people dont even care. 

I guess i shouldn’t even bother about them much, because they wont get affected by my state of mind right now and i will keep on overthinking about it. That could be worse. 

 I wont give a shit about what people think and do now 🔥

Never been through my age? Ever? 


Last night, it was around 11:30, i was on my bed and wasnt able to sleep, so i woke up and felt like a headache maybe because of long hours usage of mobile. So i went to the kitchen and got a packet of biscuits and sat on my sofa. 

While eating, i just got reminded of a message my classmate (deep)sent me asking me to meet him for the last time as i am going to shift to another state after few days. 
But i know, my mom would never allow me to go alone and meet him because of her safety concerns and being a mother of a teengirl,obviously society concerns too. Although i know, the answer will always be no but at first place,i dont even have guts to ask her about this. 

Honestly, i am very frank with my mom and she is also very friendly but no matter what, a mom is always a mom,whom you are always scared of her reaction. I dont even find any topic to start a convo about this, and slowly ask her if i can go or not?.

But my main concern is, have you never been through my age?, or its just something new problem within me which just wants to spend a little time with a guy friend?

And especially when you have met him!! I am well known about all the major problems which are happening in our country, and the reason why i am willing to go with him, is just that i know he’s a good guy and wont do anything in disfavour of me and he also lives in the same area. 

Its just that, when i can talk and discuss about each and everything to her, then why do i hesitate to ask her this? Even a no would be satisfying but just a topic. 

I guess,i’ll neither reply him nor ask my mom about it!! 

💝💙💖

Look at them!!

So yeah, ” look at them”, my dad says “small children just of 21-23 age are making their future so bright and earning so well”…i was like ok dad, i’ll work hard too. I used to hear many things from every tv show my dad sees, if its dancing show, then “dekho aaj kl bache kamaal hai” and same for singing shows too. I dont know he taunts me or what but i get offended. Ofcourse he is my dad and he has very high expectations from me. 
I can never make somebody my idol, ofcourse i ll try to learn some good values from them if i am in a good mood, you know it depends.😹😹 

If i dont look upto someone then i dont even look down on someone.. even !!no??    

If somebody has worked hard, i appreciate it and he/she is getting a fruitful result too but that doesnt mean my aims would start matching him/her. I may not match her success or fame, but i might enjoy the job i do and i guess thats the definition of success for me. 

Its not that i blame parents to have expectations from me but its just that lemme try for once what i believe in, doesnt matter if i lose but what if it happened“. 

And most importantly, we are not for permanent. We are just temporary. Then how can we decide our occupation for forever. 

Why in this so called infite universe our study courses are bound only to engineering, medical, MBA and Law. Because if you choose any other course, there is no job placement in it.  

I belong to middle class family in which i am supposed to be very carefull in case of my study course so that i can get a good job after it, so yeah basically engineering. Because its like “beta pehle engineering krlo fir jo mann aaye vo krna”. OR its like “engineering krlo beta, life set hai”.

This is surely not what i wanted. I know i’ll hardly get my 12th percentage in 80s or might be not. But i am sorry dad, i m not as good as a your colleague’s child who gets in 90s. But i surely knows where my heart lies and what i am supposed to do. Afterall i understand you and i promise i wont let you down and yeah i’ll certainly look at them but not as my idol..

I can only write what i feel in my blog because i cant say it, maybe one day i’ll speak up too.. 

💝💖💙


कभी नही॥

जो किसी दिन ना मिलू
तो घबराना नही

चुप ना रहना

लेकिन बुलाना भी नही

कभी मशरूफ हो जाऊ

तो तनहा रहना भी नही

जो कभी याद भी आऊ

तो दिल हारना नही

प्यार है तो मगर

प्यार करके पछताना नही

जो होजाओ नाराज़ तुम कभी

हक है यह, बात नही

वो सब करना जो तुमहे खुशी दे

मगर एहसान नहीं

जिस दिन भूलजाओ तुम मुझे

वो जीत है तुमहारी, हार नही

वो ज़िंदगी ही क्या ए अजनबी

जहाँ मिलना और बिछङना नही

कभी राह चलते मिल जाओ जो कभी

राहगीर समझना, हमराही नही ||

💙💗

💝💝

No love anymore


Situations like youre in the fire

Once when it makes you a liar

When its not your mistake

But heart’s kinda break

When emotions make it more complex

And your heart and brain perplex

When you feel he is that piece of puzzle you needing

But then realise, it just looks alike but does not fits in

When its just leftover love and no liking

Not meant for him and not deserving

When you feel the apparent chains bounding you

And you realise you are not you

When you are distracted by your age

And love seems no less than a cage

When you know you are wrong

Broken inside still staying strong

When you focus more on running away

More than facing and following the way

When you dont feel the bond anymore

Just like a cylinder with a hollow core

Then i feel there’s no love anymore

When the soul i loved, seems no more…..

Say yes to life women ✔

This blog is for those women who are miserable in front of their life!! I know it’s easy to advice others than to apply on ourselves!! But if you could just lend me your some minutes, it would be an honour for me.


Ladies, first of all get this out of your mind that you are miserable, you are as strong as a normal human being. We all got our dreams and that’s why we all are present here on earth!! You weren’t born to become a subordinate to someone, not even your circumstances. If someone is becoming a rock on your way, then either change your way or break that rock. Before you quit, just think were you born to live under someone’s supervision or be the master of your own fate?. All I know is you got your own body parts including heart and  a brain. Make your own way, go for life, stop finding excuses, take risk~ it’s either going to be very successful or nothing. If you succeed you win, but if you lose, you learnt something great and next time do it with perfection. 

If something you want to quit is, then eliminate the negative vibes that sourrounds you. Stay away from the person that hurts you. And very important, stop thinking about others. They aren’t the ones who are going to die with you, they will only criticise you because they themselves cant do anything. They won’t do any good to you instead they can only lower your self esteem. 

Be very clear, stay with the people who helps you and energise you. Make your every day happening. Each one of us got those 24 hours a day, it only matters how we spend it.  

At last, I would just say you weren’t born to listen others or just keeping others happy all the time, be a little selfish when it comes to your life goals!! 

Because,

We are important !!

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